Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Just one for us

Since Sweet Pea is 2, the question I hear the most is "are you trying for #2?" My neighbor even asked me if I was pregnant yet? I told her no, just fat! I hope she was embarrassed, very embarrassed!

I have been brewing about the only child idea for a while now. Honey Buns is happy with one, didn't even expect to have one and so happy he has her. I am the same, but coming from a big family I have been kinda thinking she needs a sibling. But I don't want to be pregnant again(I am old and it is hard) I don't really want to do the baby thing again(it is tiring and consuming) and just because you have a sibling...you don't always get along and finally(I can't face a special needs child even the thought of it is scary because... I am old...it is a huge risk)

This weekend I did some serious soul searching, serious. I confessed my fears and troubles to Honey Buns, he is such a good listener. He let me talk it all out, get all my fears out and arguments out on the table and he didn't even need to say much. Once I verbalized my fears...I came to this realization... like my good friend at wonderboytotherescue...I am happy with one. My family is perfect for me. My daughter is enough to keep me happy. I like her and we get along well.

I had a good weekend. It was freeing to unload all those fears and debates off my heart. Such a simple thing, but I have been carrying them for about a year now.

But the next person that asks will hear...I am so lucky have one child.
(Because I am)

2 comments:

Amy said...
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Amy said...

I couldn't have said it better.